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Confessions of a ‘Rugby Addict’

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Confessions of a ‘Rugby Addict’

I’m supposed to be working right now and if not working I really should be doing some study.  I work full time, I’m studying a degree part time and have a young and growing family.  I’ve never been so time poor but somehow I can’t focus on any of those things.

You see, I love Rugby.  I love Rugby like a much younger and much chubbier Ross loved cake.  Nah actually I love it more than that.  As much as chubby Ross probably wouldn’t have admitted back then, he could have lived without cake; he possibly would’ve been better off without cake to be honest.  Sometimes I wonder if my obsession with Rugby isn’t my modern day metaphorical cake.

A fair few years ago, Rugby was all consuming for me.  I was invested so heavily that it’s fair to say that it had taken over my life.  I know that sounds dramatic and it possibly is but that doesn’t make it any less true.  A regular mid-season Reds game would have me jittery 4-5 days out.  By the Wednesday sleeping at night became more difficult and my concentration levels fell away noticeably.  By game day I was a mess.  Tired from lack of sleep, irritable and anxious, kick off couldn’t come soon enough.  If we won, the high was euphoric and would last for days, but if we lost the crash came hard and would stick with me for the week.  It got to the point where I realised that whilst I still loved Rugby, I didn’t really like it any more.  I had to step back.

This was an awakening of sorts.  I pulled back on my investment and my return seemingly increased.  Watching Rugby again became the joy it used to be, I began appreciating quality play no matter which side produced it.  The highs weren’t as high but thankfully the lows weren’t anywhere near as crushing. Most importantly, I got my life back.

Fast forward a few years to 2014.  My beloved Reds are in the toilet and I’m completely disenchanted with the Wallabies.  My attitude to Rugby could be summed up pretty well with that image of Ewen McKenzie walking down the corridor alone after announcing his resignation.  It was upsetting but I was still OK.

mckenzie link exit

Over the ensuing couple of years, the Wallabies turn things around. Under Micheal Cheika they start looking more united and I start feeling the all to familiar pull of my drug of choice. At the end of 2015 the boys perform wonderfully at the World Cup and I’m on the brink.

Then 2016 happened. My Reds showed me why I simply couldn’t afford to relapse. I got to the ragged edge but I didn’t go over.

Fast forward again to today. The lead up to the Super Rugby season has been great to be honest.  There are many reasons to feel positive about the Reds but none more so than the apparent belief and unity that they are displaying.  They’ve come from a pretty low place and in a very short space of time have built something that even the most disillusioned supporter can get behind. I know it’s early, but it’s there. I can see it, I can smell it and I can taste it.

So here we are now. Before the game I tempered my expectations, but having watched the lads do things against the Sharks, they haven’t done for years….. I have a decision to make.  There is a part of me that is keen to maintain the status quo but undeniably the reformed Rugby junkie in me can see the what may be gained from jumping in, balls and all, just one more time.

It’s Tuesday before the Thursday match against the Force, I’ve been jittery for a few days now and last night I didn’t sleep well.  The addict has won over.  I’m going all in.


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  • John Tynan

    Nice read, Ross. Scarily familiar!

    • Ross

      Thanks John, I suspected if I shared my shame and reached out I might find I’m not alone. ;-)

      • dru

        Ross/Scoey, you are not alone.

  • Rebels3

    Nice read, I’d consider myself a rugby junkie also however do have the ability to move on from results fairly quickly. My personal issue however is the amount on content i consume + playing rugby, touch football, rugby, rugby, rugby. It’s a concern when you start prioritizing rugby over relationships at times haha.

    • Ross

      I was once like you. Beware though. When your playing days are over, you need something to fill that incredibly big void. Living vicariously through your team is what I used. That’s where the holding onto the results really takes off. It’s only a problem though if you want it to be. Who needs relationships when you’ve got Rugby though right?

      • Rebels3

        You are scaring me, i’m now into my early 30s, so the end is near. Haha, anyway rugby is my one true love. (Lets hope the other half doesn’t read my posts).

        • John Tynan

          Don’t despair. There’s always veterans/old boys. No training. A game every 2-3 weeks. Festivals. I describe it as my way of being a better father and husband.

  • Brisneyland Local

    Scoey, that is scary. Not for your level of addiction, but for the fact you could have had that article word for word written by Brisneyland Local! Except mine would not have been as articulate, and would have involved a lot of swearing and non child friendly language!
    Well written, and perhaps we should form a support group in Brissy, that RV at the Reds Bar before each match. What are your thoughts?

    • Ross

      I had a hunch I wouldn’t be Robinson Caruso on this one BL. I think a support group would be best. I can feel the healing already!

      • Brisneyland Local

        Well I reckon we set it up for the next home game, and organise an RV at the members bar. I dont think you can miss me, just look for the 6’8″ freak!

      • Brisneyland Local

        The healing is cold liquid with bubbles in it!

        • Huw Tindall

          Passion Pops all around then?

        • Brisneyland Local

          I dont know if they sell passion Pop anymore!

      • SuckerForRed

        Sounds good to me….

        • Brisneyland Local

          So you will be there?

  • juswal

    Addiction to rugby is one thing. Addiction to supporting a Super Rugby team (any team) is a special kind of hell.

    • Ross


    • Brisneyland Local

      Especially under the Woody Graham era. That was a hell rserved especially for us!

    • Kiwi rugby lover

      I know. For years this was me with the Hurricanes. Eternal joy at times followed by utmost despair. Last year got me back in the groove but I’ve learnt not to be too hopeful

  • Woolfe

    Yep, you are right to be worried about Thursday!

  • SuckerForRed

    Hi. My name is SuckerForRed. I have a rugby problem…….

    • Ross

      There’s no judgement here. This is a safe place.

    • Simon

      Your name kind of gives it away.

  • southern macro

    I had similar issues and started following my local NRL team. They didn’t win everything but when they lost there was no complaining or excuse., The fans turned out every week, the players were genuinely engaged with the community and kids were welcomed at the ground.

    As one of the (I suspect rare) people on this site that loves both sports it saddens me to say it but the whole experience is just that much better.

    I think the plight of Aussie Rugby is best demonstrated by this anecdote : Last year, a friend of mine had one of the open boxes at the SFS to watch the Tahs on a Friday night. The weather was good. We ran into some people on the street and he offered them some free tickets including all food and booze …….none of them (all former Rugby Players) could be bothered to make the 10 minute trip.

    This year the Tahs will play about 6 games in Sydney. I would be surprised if they get 10,000 people and 5,000 of them will be SFS members who get “free” entry under their yearly dues.

    Who could be bothered

  • Kiwi rugby lover

    Go for it mate. Nothing better than giving 100%

    I think the Reds are going to have a good year. They have a sense of belief that has been missing in the past and although I think they need to vary their play I like what I see

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